Do you ever feel your a tiny fish, in a HUGE pond? Not only that but there is a shark on your tail, 24/7 and you have to constantly be looking over your shoulder to see how close he is? You can never forget about the shark, even when you cant see him, you know he is still there.

Thats basically how anxiety is affecting me.

I can never forget about it and ‘just be’. Even thought i have been told trillions of times, I am not alone. Many people (if not everybody) have or do experience some form of anxiety. Im just like everyone else, they all tell me.

Often I can be happy to use anxiety as an excuse. An excuse not to go places or see friends. Iv lived this way for a few years now. Avoiding situations that I know make me uncomfortable. But how do I know I will be uncomfortable if i dont try them?

My aim, is to not live a life anxiety free, but to live a life that is not Ruled By Anxiety.

I worry about most things, often my thoughts can be so cloudy from worrying, that I forget what i’m even worrying about.  I’m like the little mouse on the wheel, running from something, or am I running to something? I forget.

Im new to blogging, but not anxiety. I am hoping taht by putting it down ‘on paper’ its out of my head. I hope to look back over my postings and see progress. Cause lately I feel I have been on this plateau for too long. Even if nobody reads this, im ok with that.

This is a record of my thoughts and feelings. None of it right or wrong. Its just me.